„You were in a lion fight. Just because you didn’t win doesn’t mean you don’t know how to roar.” Dr. Richard Webber.
Life is a Competition, life is a lion fight and we are the lions. Damn it! And I lost the contest where I expected the least.. history. Reality forced me to admit that the borne sufferings forces me to hate and to despise the idea of Competition. And when you think how much hope you put in it, and right now you found out what does participation really means, that you aren’t the only one who wants to win, to realize that there are many others with a stronger desire than yours…a lion fight…that quality of a real player that you haven’t harnessed at it fully potential, exactly what you missed…a fucking point broke you up with your future colleagues. This point learned you something and namely that the mind is a fucking box which you must open it and start to search, try to find, try to analyze yourself and see what the fuck is wrong with you??? And I think that, I must keep the good things from this experience with me and throw away the bad ones, because the days pass quickly I say to myself, the days are just like moments you have to live them, because they go very fast…bad memories I must erase them, try to follow the good examples that happened to me, and all these things give me courage to go further.
A labyrinth that you haven’t managed to solve, a puzzle without three pieces, so chin up, others were better than you in this Competition, put your shoulders back, walk proud I tell to myself, strut a little. It’s not the time to lick my wounds, I want to celebrate them. These wounds, these scars that I have now are the sign of participation…I was in a lion fight… just because I didn’t won this time, doesn’t mean that I can’t, it’s not over, the world is still spinning. I know I can, Nas used to say, I have taken this vow when I decided what I want to do with my future. I don’t care what people say around me, I don’t want to get into polemics with them, because they weren’t like me in a cage…attached to the idea of all or nothing, chained like prisoniers, captives. It’s in vain to say ourselves that we aren’t animals, because we don’t distinguish of them in any way, maybe just physically. We like to tease, to be mean with each others, but all these are nothing compared to what I endured in this Competition.
I’m grateful that I have a second chance, because I know I deserve it…just because I made a mistake it’s not over, but I’m not the only guilty you know. I’m not as good as you, maybe I haven’t the proper personality to be with you, I know that I’m not hardened as the others…I get that, I get it, but I’m Excellent at this job, I have all the qualities which recommend me and I won’t quit until I saw me on that bloody list. As we like to think that we are rational human beings, conscientious, civilized, thoughtful, but when things fall apart like this year, even just a little, it becomes clear – we’re no better than animals. “We think, we speak, we dream, but deep down we are all still like them biting, clawing, scratching”. I must always remain determined to do changes, to evolve, it’s essential to learn to handle my own, because the time showed me that I must be more simple, more secure on certain values. I try to learn on the go and this thing makes me insecure, because life is pointless if you don’t do what you love, so I struggle to give life a sense…just like animals in a fair Competition.
Quotes goes to Season 4, Episode 12: Where the Wild Things Are from Grey’s Anatomy.
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